Category Archives: “E”

A couple of weeks ago our family went to an event called “Living History Days”.  It’s put on twice a year and each time a particular battle of the Revolutionary War is re-enacted.  Additionally, there are all sorts of activities for the kids to take part in…like carpentry, blacksmithing, butter churning, and games that children played in those non-technology days.  Everyone working there wore 18th century clothing for full effect and it really helped the kids envision life back then.  It was a great way for Peter to be exposed to U.S. history and, for an added bonus, I could include it for homeschooling hours. :)





“George Washington” and the kids. He let Peter borrow his hat and sword. ;)

Learning the loom.

Learning the loom.


Tom got huge pleasure out of this moment.

Tom got huge pleasure out of this moment…

and this moment.  Actually, we both did. ;)

and this moment. Actually, we both did. ;)


Both kids made life-size muskets out of wood, which was a fun activity for them…and Tom.

They also had an outdoor surgical area where they performed 2 bullet removals on guys who were just in the “battle”.  Peter was convinced that the surgery was real and it was quite comical the argument between me, Tom, and Peter that ensued when he insisted that the blood and surgery was not fake.  We had to enlist the help of someone dressed from that era to diffuse the conflict and reassure Peter that ALL of it was just acting.  Bless Peter.

Overall, this was an incredible experience.  I highly recommend it!


Happy November, the month of thanks!  I wish I could say I’m unequivocally thankful, but I can’t do that right now.  I think the pending holidays are dragging me down with the knowledge that, for the first time in seven years, Csaba won’t be with us.  I really can’t fathom that and I wish I could just lie down and sleep through it all.  But that would also mean sleeping well into the new year because of Csaba’s birthday in February and the anniversary of darkest day of my life…March 9.  So, next summer would be a good time to awake I guess (obviously though, that can’t happen).

So I pray that God will give me the strength to get through it.

With E and P, I have to move forward.  I have to trudge on and make sure they have great childhood memories and that I NEVER take their presence in my life for granted.  So we did participate in the Halloween dress-up & trick or treating this year, even though I constantly found myself reflecting on last year’s Halloween.  While not ideal circumstances then (Tom had just flown back from his second trip to Latvia and was sick as a dog), I would prefer that an infinitesimal amount over how it all feels now.

Ok, shake it off (thanks Taylor Swift, now I have that song in my head).

Here are pics from this year’s Halloween.  Some were taken a week ago at the Elizabeth “Trick or Treat Street” festivities and the last few were taken last night when we went to an adjoining neighborhood for candy collection.  It was fun and different because, here in the country, it’s impossible for kids to walk miles and miles to each house.  So some good people from our country market got together with folks in the neighborhood and had four hay wagons for kids to ride and stop at various (read: willing) houses.  It was the first time doing this and some valuable lessons were learned:  wear a winter coat, a hat, and gloves; bring a blanket to sit on because that hay is very pokey; and maybe some hot chocolate in a thermos (with a splash of Bailey’s) for the adults would be good.  Next year I’m all over it!  Tom is off hunting this weekend so my friend, her son, and her grand-daughter who live up the street were able to join us (thank you Cindy!).


Good friends.

Good friends.


This is a miniature horse dressed as a witch. Adorable!!  I want.


P asked this “alien” where his spaceship was. I think he was serious.

My Elsa (and yes, I know there were hundreds of them this year)

My Elsa (and yes, I know there were hundreds of them this year).

The Sinclair dinosaur in front of the store was dressed as a horse this year.

The Sinclair dinosaur in front of the store was dressed as a horse.

Hayride time!

Hayride time!

Here they are, the obligatory back to school pics!  As you can imagine it was with bittersweetness that I took theses photos.  Dare I say, I almost didn’t.  But I did, and the kids humored me. :)



And this one, which I was unsure about doing at first…


But Csaba is here in spirit, so I included the kids holding a photo of him from last year’s pics.

This year we splurged a little for E to celebrate her birthday.  Last year I wanted to do a “pony party” at our new home for her fifth birthday, but we ended up being in Latvia for P’s adoption and it was celebrated with a store-bought tasteless cake (since Europe doesn’t sweeten their confections like we do here in America), after dinner in our rented apartment.  Tom would argue that it’s the best kind of birthday – being in a foreign country – but a five year old sure doesn’t think so!  However it is very special in that she had both brothers there to celebrate with her (for what is now the only and last time).  I wish I had more than a grainy phone photo of that moment…


So much has changed.

Anyway, this year I chose to throw her a spa party at a completely girly place called “Sweet and Sassy”.  She invited four good friends and they enjoyed a time of pampering, making their own lotion and sugar scrub, and of course (homemade!) “Frozen” cake and presents.  It was a lot of fun, with the best part being that it was only 2 hours and I didn’t have to clean up! :)




My first ever attempt at sculpting something out of gumpaste!





Happy Birthday my sweet girl.  Hope it was special!

It’s so strange to think about how different this Easter was from the one I posted about 2 years ago.  We missed C this year so much!!  I snapped a lot of photos of the kids because I know, more than ever, how important it is to do that.  You just never know what life will throw at you.  On top of that, I didn’t get any photos of Easter last year…the last one we’d celebrate with C.  Then suddenly we have an entirely new dynamic this year and it just seems so unreal.  I’m still trying to process everything.  Does any of this make sense?

Anyway, we had a decent Easter this year.  On Saturday we went to a neighbors house to hunt for Easter eggs and then Sunday we had two families over for lunch and festivities.  I was really wonderful, despite the cloud hanging over me that I should have had 3 baskets to stuff and 3 kids in family photos.  It’s such a nightmare to have to adjust to all of this and to have this inner turmoil just bubbling under the surface in the midst of all the holiday frivolity.  It will just never be the same, I fear.

Okay, on to photos because I’m truly at a loss as to what to say anymore…